Sound of the Rain

If some people loves to hear sound of the rain...

Yes, I hate it. When people love it when rains fall— so they no longer to be sad alone— that words just make me hate rain like lots. Rain just make me feel lonely when I'm alone.
I hate being alone.
It seems no one ever be there when I was lonely.

They did.

What I always hate about rain is, it always let me fall into my saddest feeling. I'm in my deepest mind and overthinking about everything like years ago and suddenly rains fall. There's a hole inside of me that everyone just make it worse like

People come and go.

Every drops just take me to my good memories that I can't feel anymore
I have tried to drown the memories but they know how to swim and rains just help them out. They haunted me.